for everyone

ALL I AM ASKING FOR IS HONESTY. i don't care if it's something awful you have to say to me. i would rather be let down now, then have no idea what the hell you're thinking about and completely destroy our friendship. this is just for everyone i know. 

i'm an intense person. once i trust you, i will buy you things, make you food, and be there when you need a shoulder to cry on. i will listen to your opinion and i will not take it with a grain of salt. once i trust you, i trust you. 

please don't break my heart. honesty is all i ask for.

I've been in a funk lately. Blah.
The rain suits my mood.

I've got some good music on. Derek and the Dominoes. Clapton yeeaaaah

When did I become so socially retarded? I think it was when someone pointed out that I was random or something. I got really self-conscious about what I was saying and now I second guess everything I do and say. Damn you bad habit. Dunno how to change.

april

It's April!
One more week until I visit Portland.
Five days until my first 5k race of 2012.
I'm glad no one reads this. I like having a journal just for me to ramble to myself.

Someday I will have a little house, and some lovely animals and my very own bakery. If I ever get married or raise kids, then so be it. But I don't need that to be happy. I just need my friends and family.

insh'allah, everything will work out. insh'allah.