Thursday, December 13, 2012

shit shit shit. I cannot remember my other gmail email address. fuck!

Monday, June 11, 2012

some lyrics for my mood

sly, you're still a liar
your words are not enough

Friday, May 25, 2012


wrote an entire page tonight. really happy. hoping that i will finish a good chunk or all of this project by the end of summer. then it’ll be time to get an agent and look for a publisher. enough of this nonsense of not making my dreams become reality. 
the dream of being published, of FINISHING something…. probably the longest unwavering goal i’ve ever had. my interests are generally pretty transient. my attention wanes. but writing and wanting to publish something i wrote…. it’s been a dream for longer than i’m actually sure of. i can’t put a year on it. it’s just always sort of been there. keeping me company. 
insha’llah, insh’allah. 

Thursday, May 17, 2012

letter to every failed friendship

What I really wish my silence says to you is that I wish we still talked. I wish I could just sit in the same room with you and just be. But instead, I'll just do what I always do and quit before the start. Give up before the race even starts. Make the walk of shame and blame it all on you. Blame it all on your insecurities that I despise so much because I see that I have the same issues.
Act passe about it but get angry and bring up how much you bother me with your bullshit. But I can never say it to your face. I love my honesty but when it comes down to it, I can't even look at you. No eye contact for anyone. Too intimate. So I keep my thoughts to myself and resent and get sad. Find something else to chase away the demons that I have allowed to live rent free in my head for years.
I wish I could talk to you.

Tuesday, May 15, 2012

what the fuck.

Friday, April 27, 2012

for everyone

ALL I AM ASKING FOR IS HONESTY. i don't care if it's something awful you have to say to me. i would rather be let down now, then have no idea what the hell you're thinking about and completely destroy our friendship. this is just for everyone i know. 

i'm an intense person. once i trust you, i will buy you things, make you food, and be there when you need a shoulder to cry on. i will listen to your opinion and i will not take it with a grain of salt. once i trust you, i trust you. 

please don't break my heart. honesty is all i ask for.

Friday, April 13, 2012

I've been in a funk lately. Blah.
The rain suits my mood.

I've got some good music on. Derek and the Dominoes. Clapton yeeaaaah

When did I become so socially retarded? I think it was when someone pointed out that I was random or something. I got really self-conscious about what I was saying and now I second guess everything I do and say. Damn you bad habit. Dunno how to change.